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03

Apr

this picture actually describes me… touching stray cats in Jerusalem.. I LOVE CATS .

this picture actually describes me… touching stray cats in Jerusalem.. I LOVE CATS .

(Source: jewishnbeautiful)

just updating you with my life! me and my grandpa and my favorite chocolate and me and my chattan on purim and on normal days.

I finished a sefer tehillim on purim! so theres a picture of that :)

love all!

02

Apr

Rebbe Nachman Dvar Torah

Sorry I have not been posting anything it really is such a shame.

I have had a lot going on but that should not be my excuse.

here goes a rebbe nachman story:

Rebbe Nachman purchased a new tallis and he was giving away his old one to one of his followers. He said to his follower: “You have no idea how incredible and amazing this tallis is. Treat it well, don’t ever lose it, you have no idea what kind of gift I am giving you.”

Confused, the talmid asked the rebbe ” why is this more special than any other tallis?”

Rebbe Nachman replied:”as many strands of thread there are in this tallis, is the amount of tears I cried to Hashem to understand what this tallis is.”

So what did I get out of this story: 

This made me really relieved..why you might ask?

Because every thinking person goes through confusion and deep pain trying to understand why some things are the way they are in Judaism and having a problem with how things were passed down and why we even need to do the things we do.

When I converted, I did not have any of those feelings- maybe sometimes.

But I was warned: Rachel, after you convert, you will start to have doubts and things will be harder. and you know what? they were right.

Right now I am going through a time of trying to figure a lot of things out and I am sooo happy to do this because I WANT answers and am looking for them— and I am so happy that I am having these questions and battles within me because I know that they are vessels from Hashem for me to utilize and strive to get answers so that I can rise higher.

So why does this story make me happy? Because knowing that this great tzaddik,who succeeded to rise people from their spiritual slumber, also tried to understand the meaning each mitzvah, makes me ecstatic with joy.

I am normal! hooray!

and you know what? I AM SO THANKFUL TO HAVE QUESTIONS!! this means I am thirsty for truth.

So yiddin, be true to yourself.

Don’t let yourself boil with questions.

It is normal to have them. It is almost not normal to NOT have questions.

Don’t just follow what someone says to you and do every little thing they say to do.. examine it and try to UNDERSTAND why because Hashem gave you your OWN brain for a reason :)

Tell people what your questions are and get your answers.. some answers won’t suffice and you will ask the questions for years and then finally something will click, so don’t give up! and don’t stop doing mitzvot! you will understand the meaning behind every little breath we take and every single action we perform very soon. you will rise to the top!

Warnings: there will be people who think that those who have doubts or questions are heretics. and you know what you do when they think or say that?

You continue striving for truth and become learned and strengthen your emunah.. because they will regret feeling this way and you will rise higher than ever, while they will remain stagnant :)

love you all.

message me with any questions or if you need to vent or need advice

13

Mar

Sorry

I am very sorry I have not been putting up dvar torahs

A lot is going on right now and im just a bit upset, stressed and have a lot to deal with

Love you all.

have an amazing shabbos and AMAZING purim 

hopefully ill be posting something up before that

lots of love

10

Mar

It turns out he likes it when I wear hats :)

It turns out he likes it when I wear hats :)

09

Mar

Baal Teshuvah Divrei Torah #1

What is the reason for Karbanos (sacrifices)?

this could be found in Ramban al Vayikrah:

Rambam: He says that the reason for bringing korbanot is because of the Egyptians and Pagans- the Jewish people lived in their lands; these people had the idea of worshiping animals; Egyptians worshiped lambs and the Pagans worshiped ghosts of goats. And Indians (Hindus), until today, would not schecht a cow- so therefore, we have a commandment to schecht these kinds of animals- for the sake of Hashem, so that the people should know that these animals that they thought were gods , that they’re not. 

To summarize: It was a way to institute to the Jews that these are just animals.

But Ramban has a question on that: Ramban says that it can’t be that all Hashem did was to just uproot the evil/bad beliefs of the society. He says that it is more appropriate to go after this reason: That when you sin, you are impacting yourself in 3 dif things/ways:

               1.) Your thoughts

                2.) Your speech

                3.) Your actions

So therefore, Hashem says, when you sin, you bring a Korban and use your hands to put on the head, which represents your actions.  Then you say vidui, which represents your speech, and then you take out the insides, which represents the thoughts. You take the hands ( you use them to do that sin) and feet (run to do evil) which represents yours. And then you take out the blood- which represents the Nefesh (spirit).

SOOOO THE PUNCH LINE::::::::: 

you have to understand that when you do a het (sin): YOUR WHOLE ENTITY IS INVOLVED IN THE SIN.

So when people brought karbanos, they know that it should be appropriate that when you sin, your blood should be split and your whole body should be burned… so when they saw that happen to the animal they were able to look at the animal and think “that should have been me!’ ( what an effect ..phew..)

P.S: the Ramban does say that even though Rambam gave that as a reason, that he also said that all the reasons the world continues to go round and around is because of Karbanot. (In Yad Kazaka).

I HOPE YOU LIKED THAT INSIGHT!

The official dvar torah tag!

#btdt613

HI MY BEAUTIFUL YIDDIN!!!or soon to be yiddin!!

naase-vnishmah:

jewishnbeautiful:

raizallyn:

jewishnbeautiful:

chossidoutoftown:

naase-vnishmah:

we-are-jewcy:

naase-vnishmah:

jewishnbeautiful:

I wanted to start a learning tumblr group,

aka, anyone that reblogs this and decides to do this and just learns every single day..even if it is just 5 minutes.. but the goal is : POST UP WHAT YOU LEARNT AND…

How about, learningonjumblr. Or frumblrlearning. I don’t know. Whatever we can agree on.

#btdt613

My chosson came up with it “baal teshuva dvar torah”

Does it have to be Torah or can it be halacha and chassidus and stuff, too?

Halacha and chassidut is torah :)
Anything anything anything!!!! :)))

So just to clarify, is #btdt613 the tag we’re going with?
This is also cute because it could stand for “been there, done that” like here’s this thing I learned, now I’m sharing it with you.

Yes for sure !! Okay I hope everybody is following me so I can inform that thats the official tag :)))

HI MY BEAUTIFUL YIDDIN!!!or soon to be yiddin!!

raizallyn:

jewishnbeautiful:

chossidoutoftown:

naase-vnishmah:

we-are-jewcy:

naase-vnishmah:

jewishnbeautiful:

I wanted to start a learning tumblr group,

aka, anyone that reblogs this and decides to do this and just learns every single day..even if it is just 5 minutes.. but the goal is : POST UP WHAT YOU LEARNT AND…

How about, learningonjumblr. Or frumblrlearning. I don’t know. Whatever we can agree on.

#btdt613

My chosson came up with it “baal teshuva dvar torah”

Does it have to be Torah or can it be halacha and chassidus and stuff, too?

Halacha and chassidut is torah :)
Anything anything anything!!!! :)))

HI MY BEAUTIFUL YIDDIN!!!or soon to be yiddin!!

chossidoutoftown:

naase-vnishmah:

we-are-jewcy:

naase-vnishmah:

jewishnbeautiful:

I wanted to start a learning tumblr group,

aka, anyone that reblogs this and decides to do this and just learns every single day..even if it is just 5 minutes.. but the goal is : POST UP WHAT YOU LEARNT AND…

How about, learningonjumblr. Or frumblrlearning. I don’t know. Whatever we can agree on.

#btdt613

My chosson came up with it “baal teshuva dvar torah”

I am a nurse. For 30 years of my career, I was a labor and delivery nurse. I took care of women through all stages of labor and through their delivery. Due to the many times that I have worked 16 hour shifts, I bonded with many women and helped them through long hours. Finally, through much work on the mom’s part with my guidance, she would be ready to deliver. In would sail the doctor, spend five minutes catching the baby, and then pose for all the pictures. I would hear from the families how wonderful he/she was.

Really?

Then why is my back killing me because I stood for two to three hours with a woman in a variety of positions including resting her foot on my shoulder while she pushed? Oh, and did I mention that she is also paralyzed from the waist down from the epidural, so I was also helping to hold her up while she squatted to push?

Why have I had to change my scrub clothes twice in a shift because someone either puked on me or amniotic fluid soaked everything?

Really?

Who is it that actually got that IV started while reassuring the poor mom?

Who is it that took the camera out of the daddy’s trembling hand and started taking family pictures because she knew that otherwise there would be no proof that he had even been in the room? And capturing the look of wonder on both parent’s faces at the same time.

Who is it that cleaned up every body fluid that can spew from a human, with a smile on her face and encouraging words for the mortified patient who has never been sick in front of a stranger in her life?

Who is it that tracked down the anesthesia people, chased them out of the lounge, and threatened them with their lives if they didn’t take care of her patient, NOW?

And when things didn’t go well, who was it that took that poor baby that didn’t make it, cleaned it up, dressed it, wrapped it in a soft blanket, and brought it to the broken-hearted parents to hold for the first and last time?

Oh, yeah, Dr. Marvelous is just great.

I’m just a nurse.

- Kathy Hurst Davis, Nurse, quoted in this Slate article. (via thedaysofforever)

Nurses are so underappreciated, like, seriously guys. All of my best memories from hospitals as a child were because of nurses.

(via didifallasleepforalittlewhile)

..I’ll never forget the first baby I caught as a student nurse because the doctor was out buying a magazine or something because the mom was “only 50 cents’ worth of dilated” and couldn’t possibly be ready to deliver for another three or four hours. Oh yeah.

Most doctors are wonderful. No question. But 90% of the people who take care of you in the hospital are the nurses.

(via dduane)

Truthh

(Source: cand86)

07

Mar

One of my Weird Obsessions

Well, this girl here.. me.. has a weird obsession with Indian type clothing .

LIKE REALLY OBSESSED :)

no but seriously..

so yesterday I was walking in manhattan with my friend.. and as i look to my right.. WHAT DO I SEE.

YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW.

I SAW AN INDIAN CLOTHING WHOLESALE STORE AND I WENT BONKERS.

BONKERS I TELL YOU.

i went in. fell in love with this beautiful, multicolored long dress and since it’s wholesale.. i couldn’t try it on.. and i just didn’t care.

side note: I NEVER LIKE TO SPEND MONEY. THIS IS VERY UNUSUAL.

i told the store owner that his store was my heaven and i need that dress.

i was like.. what size is it? and he is like “one size fits most” LOLLLLL.

the most hilarious way to say that.

Loved it. At least he is honest.

anyways.. 

i just wanted to tell you that I got a pretty awesome dress. 

pictures posted soon :)

HI MY BEAUTIFUL YIDDIN!!!or soon to be yiddin!!

I wanted to start a learning tumblr group,

aka, anyone that reblogs this and decides to do this and just learns every single day..even if it is just 5 minutes.. but the goal is : POST UP WHAT YOU LEARNT AND SUMMARIZE IT AND EVEN SOMETIMES GIVE YOUR INSIGHT :)

every single day :)

also, please feel free to message me with any questions you have :)  or even if you want to chat about Torah :)